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No rhyme, no reason, just a bit recalcitrant on the weekends.

{on queue, away for a few weeks}

At first, I had trouble dating a girl who was recovering from an eating disorder. I couldn’t get by the fact that I may not ever be able to treat her to a nice dinner because she simply could not go out. I hated sitting by and watching her as she ignored the compliments I gave her and constantly commented on how she wished to look like “that girl”, or “her over there”. And it used to bother me that there were so many things she just couldn’t eat.
Then I realized that eating out wasn’t important in a relationship like ours. What was important was our meals together at home, and how I knew exactly what to make her every night. How we sat together at the beginning of each week and spent at most an hour at a time planning the meals we would share. How appreciative she looked when I refused to sit in silence at the table to keep her from focusing on the calories that entered her body.
I almost enjoyed that I knew exactly what she couldn’t eat, and I soon got past the fact that we might not ever be able to order pizza from domino’s on a Friday night while we watched Harry Potter in the living room. All I cared about eventually was helping her, and that was what a relationship should be like.
I loved her so much that I could stand the nights where she stood in front of the mirror and cried, and it would tear my heart to pieces when she would ask me why I could ever love someone that looked like her. I would hold her, I wouldn’t tell her she was beautiful more than once or twice, and that was all. I trusted her and she I enough that we could sit together every night and she could tell me whether or not she had thrown up her lunch, even if I already knew because I was so scared that I watched her after every meal. Even if I knew, though, I never stopped her, because they were her battles, and I knew that no matter how much it hurt, me fighting them for her wouldn’t help.
Soon enough though, I saw that she became more confident. Her trips to the restroom following meals became fewer until I could relax, knowing that there was a good chance she was safe. There were less times when she looked at the mirror and pinched fat that was actually only skin. Finally, she asked me to take her out for dinner. Finally, we ordered domino’s on a Friday night and watched Harry Potter.
And that, that’s what love is.
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That is beautiful
Absolutely Beautiful

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Omg. Real tears.

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Zodiac Expression of Nerves

  • ♈ Aries: Hyperactivity, headaches, impulsivity, recklessness, hostility, frustration, confrontation, restlessness, rapid speech, over thinking, displays of vulnerability and need for reassurance, inability to complete minor tasks
  • ♉ Taurus: Reservation; they will dissociate into their own worlds and be untouchable, binge eating, compulsivity (cleaning, organizing, hand washing), silence; anxiety will come in waves for Taurus and be sustained for a long period, sore throat, 'blank' mindedness
  • ♊ Gemini: Giggling, restlessness, rapid speech, talkativeness, tremors, hyperactivity, distractibility, racing thoughts, insomnia, inability to stay focused on and complete even minor tasks, loud and more talkative inner monologue, chest/lung discomfort
  • ♋ Cancer: Teariness, catastrophized thinking, imagination worst case scenarios, inability to stop distressing thoughts and inner monologue, drifting off/inability to focus, food cravings, isolation but co-current feelings of neediness and reassurance, stomach cramps and nausea
  • ♌ Leo: Frustration, hostility, catastrophizing (imagining and living worst case scenarios) martyrdom, impulsivity, binge eating/drinking, they tend to go out of their way to help and do things for other people/keep busy in service, back pain, somatic troubles
  • ♍ Virgo: Digestive upset, restlessness, repetitive movements (hair twirling, counting) tremor, rapid thinking, withdrawal into isolated 'bubble', compulsive tasks (cleaning, organizing), need to keep busy and distracted may pace back and forth
  • ♎ Libra: Unusual quietness, increased needs for re assurance, stomach upset, restlessness, distractibility, insomnia, negative inner monologue, catastrophized imagination, repetitive hand motions, inability to explain themselves or say they are unwell
  • ♏ Scorpio: Increased need for control, hostility, violent frustration (wall kicking, throwing objects), irrationality, increased obsessiveness - they may spend hours and hours focused on one task almost manically, rejection of others though frustration they are not 'there', flashbacks
  • ♐ Sagittarius: Increased vocal volume, higher impulsivity, hostility, hyperactivity - they are liable to go out running or try to repress it physically, substance use, rapid thoughts, recklessness, giggling, distractible, back pain
  • ♑ Capricorn: Tension, overwhelming feelings of butterflies and nerves inside especially in their stomachs although they remain composed externally. Over thinking and inability to distract themselves from worst case scenario, hostility, isolation, tendency to take on more work shifts or responsibilities
  • ♒ Aquarius: Talkativeness, rapid speech, over thinking, restlessness, insomnia, confusion; Aquarians will feel anxious or nervous yet have little insight into why they feel this way or what is causing it, their minds and emotional responses are not connected, back pain
  • ♓ Pisces: Teariness, catastrophized thinking, inability to distract or change thought patterns, flashbacks, hysteria, chest discomfort, digestive upset/nausea, irrationality, distressing inner monologue, substance use, increased need for assurance

sliceofbri:

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  • no tangles
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  • wow you save like $18372 on shampoo and product
  • people can play with your hair without getting tangles
  • can fluff it like a punk or slick it back like a classy person

short hair cons

  • like 3 style options. maybe 4.
  • no mermaid hair when you swim
  • no hair-stache
  • sticks up at crazy angles while you sleep
  • can never sleep with wet hair
  • ever.
mermaidskey:

hemipelagicdredger:

mermaidskey:

mermaidskey:

oxidoreductase:

Lavoisier is having none of your shit.

Heeeey so fun fact: the woman in that painting is Lavoisier’s wife, Marie-Anne Pierrette Paulze, who not only acted as Lavoisier’s lab assistant but also translated English and Latin texts into French so he could read them. But she didn’t just translate, she pointed out errors in the chemistry in some of the texts. Her observations of these errors convinced Lavoisier to study combustion, which led to his discovery of oxygen. She was also critical to the publication of Lavoisier’s Elementary Treatise on Chemistry in 1789. She kept strict records of every experiment they conducted together and drew detailed diagrams of all their equipment. She also threw amazing parties and invited all the brightest minds in science so her husband could pick their brains. After Lavoisier was guillotined she secured all of his notebooks and equipment for posterity.
In short: NOBODY KICKS MADAME LAVOISIER OUT OF THE LAB.

Also, a side note: My historian husband-to-be pointed some things out to me about this painting. Notice that Madame Lavoisier is looking at the viewer, and all the light is on her, while Lavoisier himself is physically smaller than her, in shadow, and looking up to her in reverence. This isn’t a candid photograph- all of these choices are deliberate. The painting isn’t of Lavoisier- Madame Lavoisier is meant to be the central subject. 
I can just imagine Lavoisier telling all his colleagues that his wife is really the one with all the clever ideas, and them patting him on the back and telling him he’s sweet for saying so.

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mermaidskey:

hemipelagicdredger:

mermaidskey:

mermaidskey:

oxidoreductase:

Lavoisier is having none of your shit.

Heeeey so fun fact: the woman in that painting is Lavoisier’s wife, Marie-Anne Pierrette Paulze, who not only acted as Lavoisier’s lab assistant but also translated English and Latin texts into French so he could read them. But she didn’t just translate, she pointed out errors in the chemistry in some of the texts. Her observations of these errors convinced Lavoisier to study combustion, which led to his discovery of oxygen. She was also critical to the publication of Lavoisier’s Elementary Treatise on Chemistry in 1789. She kept strict records of every experiment they conducted together and drew detailed diagrams of all their equipment. She also threw amazing parties and invited all the brightest minds in science so her husband could pick their brains. After Lavoisier was guillotined she secured all of his notebooks and equipment for posterity.

In short: NOBODY KICKS MADAME LAVOISIER OUT OF THE LAB.

Also, a side note: My historian husband-to-be pointed some things out to me about this painting. Notice that Madame Lavoisier is looking at the viewer, and all the light is on her, while Lavoisier himself is physically smaller than her, in shadow, and looking up to her in reverence. This isn’t a candid photograph- all of these choices are deliberate. The painting isn’t of Lavoisier- Madame Lavoisier is meant to be the central subject. 

I can just imagine Lavoisier telling all his colleagues that his wife is really the one with all the clever ideas, and them patting him on the back and telling him he’s sweet for saying so.

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recoveryisbeautiful:

What Is Bipolar Disorder?

Living with Bipolar Disorder

Coping with Mania

Coping with Depression

Supporting Someone with Bipolar Disorder

                  - Helping a Loved One Manage a Manic Episode
                  - 10 Ways to Show Love to Someone with Depression

 Other

                  - Dealing Effectively

                 - Understanding Bipolar and Recovery
                 - Coping Strategies

Be sure to go to my RESOURCES page for more informational and support websites on bipolar disorder as well as worksheets to help you cope or track your mood. This page will be updated regularly and worksheet pages will be continuously added.

my-name-is-long:

ninathehyena:

lokisangelwithashotgun:

sweeterthanmydreams:

xcrashedbrains:

THIS

Whoa, hold up there a minute. If you’re cutting your wrists after your boyfriend broke up with you again, THAT’S STILL SELF HARM. I don’t see how it suddenly isn’t just because you don’t approve of their reasons. Any attempts at injuring yourself is self harm even if you do it once. And it’s still really bad no matter how often it happens.
Bulimia IS making yourself puke AT ALL. It’s not normal to make yourself puke EVER. Chronic Bulimia is where you do it often. Plenty of bulimics don’t puke after every meal. You only have to force yourself to puke three times a week to be diagnosed. Edit: Some bulimics do not puke at all! The only rule for diagnosis is PURGING. Purging also is done through laxatives and does not always include self-induced vomiting. To be Bulimia, though, it has to be paired with binge eating.
Insomnia IS ANY DIFFICULTIES WITH SLEEPING. "Transient insomnia lasts for less than a week. It can be caused by another disorder, by changes in the sleep environment, by the timing of sleep, severe depression, or by stress." So when you’re stressed about a test and can’t get into a deep enough state of sleep or stay asleep, that is insomnia. Chronic Insomnia isn’t not sleeping for two nights but insomnia can be.
Schizophrenia is not seeing things when you’re high, but getting high too often can cause schizophrenia.
Someone who complains about a sudden switch when they’re depressed might really have MPD. Switches are often triggered as emotional responses to certain situations. No two people’s MPD behaves the same; patients display huge differences in number of “alters”, methods of switching between them and frequency of those switches.
Depression is ANY period of deep emotional low. “Depressed mood is not necessarily a psychiatric disorder.”CLINICAL DEPRESSION is the disease that causes a person to feel depressed with no known cause, though it can be linked to events in the patients life.
When someone complains about anxiety before a test it is not actually anxiety. But if their stress manifest as, say, that worry triggering you to worry about ridiculous situations such as leaving the car door open when you never would or having forgotten to turn off the stove, it is anxiety. No matter how often it happens. Anxiety is an EMOTIONAL STATE of worrying intensely about things unlikely to happen. When it becomes a psychological problem, it’s called General Anxiety Disorder. People can be Anxious and not have a disorder at all. It’s an emotion.
Check your facts before trying to control how people label their emotions. There are some good points here, but some of these are just awful or misinformed. Like how in the world is that self injury example NOT self injury?

*slow clap*

YES.

That self injury one especially made no sense. You are INJURING yourSELF. SELF INJURY.

my-name-is-long:

ninathehyena:

lokisangelwithashotgun:

sweeterthanmydreams:

xcrashedbrains:

THIS

Whoa, hold up there a minute. If you’re cutting your wrists after your boyfriend broke up with you again, THAT’S STILL SELF HARM. I don’t see how it suddenly isn’t just because you don’t approve of their reasons. Any attempts at injuring yourself is self harm even if you do it once. And it’s still really bad no matter how often it happens.

Bulimia IS making yourself puke AT ALL. It’s not normal to make yourself puke EVER. Chronic Bulimia is where you do it often. Plenty of bulimics don’t puke after every meal. You only have to force yourself to puke three times a week to be diagnosed. Edit: Some bulimics do not puke at all! The only rule for diagnosis is PURGING. Purging also is done through laxatives and does not always include self-induced vomiting. To be Bulimia, though, it has to be paired with binge eating.

Insomnia IS ANY DIFFICULTIES WITH SLEEPING. "Transient insomnia lasts for less than a week. It can be caused by another disorder, by changes in the sleep environment, by the timing of sleep, severe depression, or by stress." So when you’re stressed about a test and can’t get into a deep enough state of sleep or stay asleep, that is insomnia. Chronic Insomnia isn’t not sleeping for two nights but insomnia can be.

Schizophrenia is not seeing things when you’re high, but getting high too often can cause schizophrenia.

Someone who complains about a sudden switch when they’re depressed might really have MPD. Switches are often triggered as emotional responses to certain situations. No two people’s MPD behaves the same; patients display huge differences in number of “alters”, methods of switching between them and frequency of those switches.

Depression is ANY period of deep emotional low. “Depressed mood is not necessarily a psychiatric disorder.”CLINICAL DEPRESSION is the disease that causes a person to feel depressed with no known cause, though it can be linked to events in the patients life.

When someone complains about anxiety before a test it is not actually anxiety. But if their stress manifest as, say, that worry triggering you to worry about ridiculous situations such as leaving the car door open when you never would or having forgotten to turn off the stove, it is anxiety. No matter how often it happens. Anxiety is an EMOTIONAL STATE of worrying intensely about things unlikely to happen. When it becomes a psychological problem, it’s called General Anxiety Disorder. People can be Anxious and not have a disorder at all. It’s an emotion.

Check your facts before trying to control how people label their emotions. There are some good points here, but some of these are just awful or misinformed. Like how in the world is that self injury example NOT self injury?

*slow clap*

YES.

That self injury one especially made no sense. You are INJURING yourSELF. SELF INJURY.

lezbhonest:

I just stumbled upon this great resource and thought I would share!

Poised Affluence is a resource center that offers coaching, workshops, and literature for same-sex couples. Jayme Blasiman created this program specifically for same-sex couples, tired of relying on the resources available for heterosexual couples.

She offers a “risk free coaching session" and is hosting a FREE workshop in Columbus, Ohio on July 9th. Looks pretty cool.
I thought y’all would enjoy this! I know I personally hate reading straight couple advice because that shit does not apply to lesbian relationships. At all.

theandysar:

mindblowingscience:

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shirilee:

keeperofthehens:

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I love how this post is like “Oh, clean up some of the nastiest, hard to clean shit with coke!” but doesn’t mention “Hey, you actually ingest this stuff that can clean CORRODED CAR BATTERIES.”

Uhg.

Heyyy this is because when you put carbon dioxide to make the carbonated water, you get carbonic acid. Carbonic acid varies in how much the pH is, especially in the different coke products. Strong enough to dissolve rust but not steel or any of the metals mentioned here.

But here’s the thing, carbonic acid is not one of the 6 strong acids. You know what is one of those? Hydrocholric acid. You know where you naturally secrete hydrocholric acid? Your stomach. Hydrochloric acid is some nasty stuff and WILL eat away at a screw if allowed to soak long enough. If you ever got just drop of a diluted solution on your skin in chem lab, then you can see where that would happen very easily.

The stronger acid wins. Your tummy is fine when you drink coke. Your tummy makes acid strong enough to fuck that corroded battery up. It can handle a can of coke. Please don’t swallow a screw or something to test this tho, please.

thank you science side of tumblr <3

Seriously. You could probably do all of these with lemon juice (citric acid) or vinegar (ethanoic, or acetic, acid) just because acids work in pretty similar ways. Actually, when you see people recommending vinegar as a household cleaner? This is what it’s doing!

Also, as someone who has accidentally inhaled hydrochloric acid fumes, TRUST ME, THE CARBONIC ACID IS MUCH BETTER.

Every time I see a hysterical post on modern food I just kinda point and laugh

Because dude. Dude.  You know what you brea Hothe in and out every fucking second to survive? Oxygen. An incredibly corrosive gas that is probably responsible for more deaths across the history of the planet than anything else. Not only that, it’s a biproduct of photosynthesis. You literally rely on plant excretions to survive

Do you know what most of your body is made up of? Water. Which, given enough time, will destroy anything.

That morning coffee you like? Well shit, caffeine - lifeblood to many - is actually an incredibly potent nerve toxin (If you’re an insect). Plants actually produce that shit as an insecticide.

That refreshing zing from citrus?  Acid.  That juicy smack of a tomato? Acid and cadmium.  That tart in an apple? Arsenic.  That seasoning you put all over your fish and chips? Acid strong enough to destroy seashells - life that has evolved to survive living in a salt-drenched sea.

Stop being a tit and drink your damned coke.

EVERYTHING. IS. CHEMICALS.

Well yeah but what is dangerous about coke is the high levels of Sodium and Sugar it has. Lots of Sodium? Hipertension. Lots a Sugar? Diabetes. Both of these diseases increase the risk of having both heart attacks and strokes (among other things) Not to mention that there ARE people whose stomachs do get hurt with carbonated drinks (heart burn associated to carbonated drinks is super common) and it is also very bad for you teeth. So yeah drink your coke but don’t pretend it’s a healthy drink AND DON’T TELL PEOPLE IT’S 100% OK EITHER BECAUSE THAT IS GROSS. Everything needs to be done in moderation.